Sunday, April 27, 2008

feeling Broke & Broken

Okay.. no secret that DH has been having trouble with work.. Money is stretched, we are not officially broke yet, but it's scary none the less..
but now, we are also BROKEN..
DH broke his foot today.. we were going to BJ's, (which for the record, was something I did NOT want to do, I just wanted to stay home and spend an hour cleaning the playroom -- together)
but we were heading out, he was avoiding stepping on her foot and he twisted funny, heard the crack and the swelling ensued..

after a very quick run at the ER, he has a cast, no weight on it for 2 weeks and 8 weeks in the cast for sure.. we need to see the bone dr. sometime this week.. he is being brave, but I know how much that all has to hurt..

things WILL not be getting prior to the arrival of the baby, things like the nursery, etc.. unless we recruit help from reluctant partners.. which is seems very unlikely.. but we'll see..

I am 30 weeks pregnant now and shouldn't be lifting much, so doing it myself will even be a stretch..
things just keep on getting crazier and crazier..
If I knew better, I would be crying rather than laughing, but honestly, I am afraid if I get started, I might never stop...
Monique

Pj Sunday once again..

Ahh.. the beauty of a simple day to do NOTHING..
it was my day to sleep in, but DH slept on the couch even later than me... but he did get her right out of the bedroom and made her breakfast... (have I mentioned that we take turns? on the weekend, one of us gets up on saturday, usually him and one of us gets up on sunday, usually me) it works out, this way one of us gets a little extra sleep and some one on one time, usually just playing toys or coloring, breakfast, that sorta thing, but atleast it's all equal)

So Miranda and I read the paper and I read her the comics.. she really like Lio.. so funny to hear her get excited about it and giggle like she does.. then we went to play downstairs, computer for her and sorting photos for me.. she played for awhile with her Pony Teapot Palace too.. I managed to get MOST of 2006 and 2007 photos organized.. I still have a very big box to get through.. but that will be for another day..
I am thinking about taking a break from 2004 photos and switching to 2006.. I have some great photos and some cool ideas for layouts.. we'll see.. maybe I can crank out another ton of pages this month.. which would be so cool..
I do need new albums and page protectors.. might work on fixing that for Mother's day..

so we were all downstairs and it's all of a sudden 1pm.. umm. no wonder I was hungry.. (I did eat cereal for breakfast too though -- just so you don' t think I am starving the baby) and we head back upstairs for lunch.. he had leftover steak and she had chicken nuggets and fries from yesterday.. we watched Top Chef and now she is playing Sweet Streets and watching Chop Socky Chucks.. when is showered, I am going.. then we are going to BJ's to buy hamburgers and water..
WOW what a rousing sunday in my house..
but you know the truth.. I would not change it.. I have spent more time playing with Miranda and sitting together with my husband than I have ALL week.. it's a wonderful thing.. just quiet boring family time.. now I know why we did so little on a Sunday when I was growing up.. I might not have spent as much direct time with my parents, since there were 7 of us, but I remember just being around more and chilling out.. nice change of pace...

If I knew better.. I once again would have started the laundry.. or maybe started cleaning the future baby's room. but for today.. I am just enjoying what is.. living in THIS moment...
and it's never felt better..

:) Monique

Friday, April 25, 2008

harder than I thought

I thought going back to work would be a piece of cake..
I haven't really worked a whole bunch since last summer.. the start of school is slow work for Subs and then with start of my pregnancy being so yucky, my uncle being sick and then the vacation, not too much work for me.. but after Uncle Joe passed and our need for the money, I thought I would and could return to work full time. *sheesH* tough work -- all you ladies who do it all the time, bless your hearts.. I know how lucky I am that Fuzzy is cool about things.. I was supposed to work today and just felt so YUCKY... I am seriously thinking that I might have to do 3 days each week and count my blessings.. we'll see.. because we could use the money.

I also caved and bought 2 outfits for the baby.. one probably to come home in and one dress that matches one of Miranda's sundresses.. she picked that one out.. so tiny and OH so cute.
other wise, I did NOTHING all day... I am really really really feeling pregnant and the baby has been so active lately... I know I am whining.. and if I knew better.. I would stop.. but I AM pregnant and it's not easy.. especially with all the stresses in life right now..

:) Monique

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

not too bad...

Okay.. so Monday I did not work.. didn't get all the list done either..
But, on a serious note.. I could move into Miranda's room and live happy..
her room is totally clean, wiped the wall, dusted the baseboards, polished the wood, cleaned the dresser out, the closet was already done, weeded out baby books and put in new ones, got rid of shoes that don't fit, stripped her bed, washed everything, same to the window, new clean curtains..
seriously, the room just felt good to be in.. I dusted vaccuumed, the whole thing.. AHHH-- one small space of perfection... BLISS..

I also got all the laundry washed & folded, all of it.. nothing left but the clothes we had on.
cleaned up the living room and did up the bathroom.. felt great!
I recruited Fuzzy for the dishes in the sink and dinner dishes, I have to finish the pans tonight..

but I am tired.. I worked today and I in my recent state of feeling pregnant, I am tired. I needed a nap, as usual, but I really really slept. like an excess of an hour.

On a good note.. I passed my glucose test.. SOOO thrilling to hear good news..
leftover chinese for dinner, Miranda will be thrilled to have chicken nuggets.. no tears over dinner tonight.. so that is a plus..

If I knew better, I would realize how much I am babbling.. and today I do know better -- so I will end this here...

:) Monique

Sunday, April 20, 2008

if I made a list...

So, I have been professing the greatness of the just 5 things to do each day..
If I actually sat down, made a list of ALL the things that should be done, need to be done or MUST be done.. the list would total well into over a million.. okay maybe more like a 100, but that is not exaggerating.. and seriously this week.. I FEEL SO PREGNANT..
the lower part of my belly where the baby hangs out is sore and I get tired really really quick.
I need a nap just about everyday now...
I am feeling bad, because we really could use the money, but I am only going to work 4 days each week.. 2 reasons.. 1 - need a day to catch up at home and be alone to do it.. I get more done alone than with ANYONE floating around.. (and to my local friends who read this, this is why no one has been invited over in a really really really long time) and 2 - I start seeing my dr. every 2 weeks now and I need to leave a day open for that, because before too long it will be every week.. scarey thought - very scarey thought..

Fuzzy has been sweet and trying to tell me that it will be okay.. it will all work out and once the little bundle gets her, she really only needs a bassinet to sleep in and her pumpkin seat to ride in.. seriously, it like my subconscious thinks she will show up complaining that the dust on the radiator is really old and that the downstairs bathroom could have used a good scrub before she got here.. it will work out, the toys will get moved and the nursery will be set up.. sooner rather than later.. I hope..

Fuzzy job is no better, so the stress levels are still a little high, but we are making the very best of it.. planning out menus and shopping for what we need, limiting what we don't.. it's all good things, things we needed to be doing before the baby got here anyways..

so, my list for Monday
1. finish washing the floors in the kitchen / living room
2. clean her room, dust the baseboards too
3. laundry -- for all of us..
4. quick clean the bathroom
5. spend 15 minutes in the playroom just doing something.. that room is getting so bad..

this list could be longer, but honestly, I will be lucky if I finish this..

if I knew better, I would be resting right now, but I know I have time for one more load of laundry tonight. .
:) Monique

Saturday, April 19, 2008

spring & dirt

Okay.. so it is finally spring.. I am so glad.. the weather is a welcomed change..
Miranda is not the biggest outdoorsy type, she likes to have friends to play outside, Fuzzy has been great about keeping her playing and moving.. me I am just feeling really pregnant..
I keep her going most of the day, by 3:30 or 4pm.. I poop out.. at 7 months, I think I am allowed.
but Miranda is really good about bringing her toys outside, like her teaset & such and playing outside... we can read or just relax -- hey atleast we are outside -- enjoying the sunshine..

now for the dirt portion of the title.. I had to go a for 3 hour glucose test today.. and I um.. feel like dirt.. basically, for those of you who have never had a baby or just don't know.. the test is a glucose test to check for gestational diabetes.. basically, you show up fasting, they draw blood, you drink this nasty drink of glucose water and you wait.. at 1 hour, 2 hour and 3 hour, they take a vile of blood... just checking how the body metabolizes the sugars... I had the 1 hour test last week and because I was at 152 where 135 is normal, just a little above, I had to do this one.. Last week I was yucky enough.. nausea and such.. but it ended so much faster, this time, I needed to lay down, felt shakey and dizzy... I ate something right after and then headed home for a nap.. it's been a while and I still just feel lousy.. I was able to play outside with Miranda for a while and then did a few other little things.. but I am just feeling slugish -- sorta like dirt...

good thing is, it will pass soon and tomorrow is a new day.. with new busy stuff for us.. a parade and a birthday party -- which I need to wrap the present for.
I am too BLAH to think about knowing any better.. I am whiney and tired and sticking with it.. at least for today..
:) Monique

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I have been robbed..

Okay.. I don't know how it happened..
maybe all 5 of us (me, dh, miranda, my dr. and a med student) in his tiny little office..
maybe the host of issues, like a minor infection or my quick discussion of having my tubes tied at the birth of the new baby --
maybe his shock over my willingness to still tie the tubes with the knowledge that something, God forbid could happen to the baby..
maybe the fact that my stinkin' glucose test came back at 152 where 135 is normal..
I don't know, but somewhere in the middle of this insane appt, I lost a week.. I thought I was 29 weeks and 1 day.. according to all the emails I have been getting with my new due date posted accurately, or the calendar markings, or whatever other method I have been using to track this baby.. I lost another week... I am, according to my dr. 28 weeks and 1 day pregnant..
this is the second if not the 3 time this has happened..
seriously, for a woman who really dislikes being pregnant.. not great news..
only good thing.. my due date remains the same.. July 1 at 7 am... so thankful for that..
unless the princess comes early..

either way.. I am offically down another 4 lbs from a month ago. so for a grand total of 25 lbs lost and 7 months pregnant.. I am not upset.. the baby is growing well, atleast according to the ultrasound and other than my glucose being a little high, all seems well.
we are eating better and started walking together at night as a family.. just a few blocks -- but still more than we were doing and great to get us all moving.. the weather is beautiful and it's fun.. we are talking, laughing and playing the alphabet game, which is always good for a preschooler.. I also found out that my husband can't remember the sequence of the alphabet without singing it.. you know - I bet he is not alone.. because I have worked with the alphabet so closely for so long.. I know mine.. even without singing it.

okay.. enough complaining...
If I only knew better, I would focus on the July 1st and not worry about the weekly numbers..
my little girl will be here soon.. and honestly, I can't wait..

:) Monique

baby appt..

Ahh.. another baby appt. I am officially 29 weeks and finally feeling pregnant..
I tire quickly, cry at the drop of a hat (enough stress here to help with that) and am starting to feel the need -- but lack the ambition to nest..
we have the baby appt today and everyone is excited to go hear the heartbeat.. I know, we are the crazy people at the dr. office who just get excited over these things...
We tried to name the baby today, going with the kick if you want your name to be.. while I love Sydney, I am just not sold on it, just like Katie. I love them both, just not sold.. I really want to wait and see what the little monkey looks like.. so I think she will just continue to be baby girl or monkey..
WOOSH.. WOOSH.. WOOSH.. that is what Miranda thinks the baby sounds like with the doppler.. can't wait until noon to hear it again..

Enjoy your Wednesday..
:) Monique

Monday, April 14, 2008

vacation week...

So, we have school vacation week.. since I am home I kept Miranda home... the poor thing.. if I don't get my act together soon, she will end up playing dolls and watching tv, creating art and blowing bubbles outside for short periods the whole vacation..
I spent the morning cleaning the kitchen.. how seriously BORING is that.. but the kitchen was cleaned.. she is going to help me in the bathroom tomorrow and then dusting and cleaning her room.. people might seriously consider reporting me for child labor -- but if she is into it.. no harm -- no fowl.. right??

she is going for her eye appt, a haircut and maybe a dentist appt (if we have coverage still -- which is so another topic for another day).. she is excited about going to the park, maybe a playdate with a friend or two, and lunch with my sisters at their office.. if we can we might squeeze in breakfast with one of my friends whom I haven't really seen since I got back from vacation. we do need a trip to the grocery store and the craft store so that I can start her baby sister's x-stitch foot sampler. I am sure she will talk me into SOMETHING... tomorrow we are definitely hitting the library for free art time and probably more time playing with the toys that are out there..

Which brings me to the point of my post.. The library.. a seriously under-rated and under-used service in our lives... we were not making the best use of the library either until just recently.. we started going back for sleepy time story hour 6:45-7:15 on a weeknight.. Not great timing, but so much fun.. it is a great option for the working parents.. we have been checking out 5 or 6 books -- not that I don't personally own 1000 (yes, I wrote 1000 because we do actually have 1000 children's books that we own -- former preschool teacher here) and a video or two.. well tonight.. my little girl took a big step and got her OWN library card... such a big step.. might help in easing all of the anxiety both Fuzzy and I are having about putting her in kindergarten... seriously, when did a child of 5 become old enough to get on a bus -- ALONE and go to school - ALONE.. umm.. not here, not in this house...

Kindergarten in another issue for another day..
and tonight, because I do know better, I will end this blog, say goodnight and discuss it on another entry..
Good night.
:) Monique

Sunday, April 13, 2008

pj sundays...

I love hang out pj sundays.. they are so mellow..
we do a little bit with Miranda, she plays by herself, we do a little bit on our own..
Get tons of laundry done, bake some brownies, clean a closet, watch some tv,
scrapbook a page, organize a box, take showers and then out to dinner for my nephews birthday..
AH.. loving the easy days....
they sometimes make you feel like a bad parent, but with uncertain weather and just needing to be lazy to help de-stress a little.. AHHH.. nothing beats a PJ Sunday..
*insert loud laugh from my little girl here, she is watching Hannah Montana in my bedroom as I write this* obviously, she agrees..

If I only knew better, I would not be feeling guilty about my day..
:) Monique

Thursday, April 10, 2008

being a parent.. stinks

Okay.. so it was a nice day outside.. really nice.. spring is HERE.... *insert Happy Dance*

Fuzzy's employment situation being what it is, he is home most afternoons and is going with me to pick her up from preschool. I have been picking her up closer to 4 pm.. Now, Yes, I do get out of work earlier and could get her, BUT, they are playing LONGER and LONGER outside at school and she likes to be outside at school and not so much at home - and she actually gets upset if there are too many kids still there and I pick her up.. so later we are coming..
When we got home, we spent some time outside... ah.. the beauty of being outside.. we picked up a bag of leaves and junk the back yard.. felt good.. we are going to get Miranda some garden gloves this weekend so she can help us rake & such..

the point to this, nice weather makes Fuzzy want ice cream Lincoln Creamery.. real ice cream (there is a whole story I need to share with you about the quantity of ice cream that Australian's eat.. on the whole.. I think they eat more than Americans, but he did the research, American's eat more -- I suppose my family just eats less) Anyways, we agreed that after dinner we would go for ice cream.. if it was open anyways. So, inside I go, to make sliders, Fuzzy's secret favorite dinner... mini hamburger on these great french bread rolls from stop and shop.. they are yummy.. fresh tomato, cheese, he has onion.. they are good.. but for my picky child, I made ground beef with white rice.. gave her a 1/2 slice of cheese and a few chips.. tortilla chips usually.. basically, she is eating deconstructed tacos.. tonight, she is giving us a major run around about.. she drank her milk and was so whiney about eating.. made me crazy.. we told her she didn't have to eat -- but that at 6:30 we were going for ice cream and she could not have any.. she didn't care.. I don't think she believed we would do it, but we drove to the ice cream place, where I got a soft serve strawberry and he got a bear tracks -- chocolate with nuts and drove back home.. she said that she would eat the peanut butter and carrots for dinner and negotiated that if she did, she could have some of his ice cream.. needless to say, the carrots did NOT go over well, so a sad face on the calendar (we are marking ANY new foods on the calendar, our goal was one new food each week -- mmm. we are ALOT behind, but still trying) and she didn't eat the carrots and didn't get the ice cream.. Now, I know that this is all in my head, but I felt like every woman at the ice cream place was looking at me funny for NOT getting her any ice cream.. and I felt bad when she talked about eating and liking the carrots all the way home so she could have some ice cream.. she wants to eat the stuff.. but doesn't.. I felt bad.. really bad.. but I know that she needed to call our bluff and prove that she was not going to get ice cream.. if she had cried and carried on, it might have been worse, but she didn't, she accepted it, moved on and let it go.... still I feel bad, and felt really bad eating it in front of her.. but we warned her.. being a parent and sticking to your guns is NOT an easy thing to do it.. sometimes, it truly stinks being the mommy...

okay.. I am realizing this makes little sense and because sometimes I do know better.. I will end this here and go catch up on the last episode of Eli Stone before I am too tired and fall asleep on the couch again..

:) Monique

Monday, April 7, 2008

normal IS over-rated..

Okay.. so a few weeks back I was craving normal life.. well, I have it, and as predicted, I am in a slump.. not a bad one, just a lot going on around me and things just seem so far beyond what I can actually control.. being a control freak -- it's not easy..
I like normal, Miranda needs normal and so does this baby.. I have to try an not stress so much..
we will survive and things WILL be okay... just a little while before we get back to that..

If I knew better...
I can't even end my thoughts tonight... so I am going to bed..
Monique

Saturday, April 5, 2008

cleaning house

Okay.. so now that we know WHAT the baby is.. it's time to start making space for her..
I hate the thought of cleaning like I am about to.. because honestly, I am so all about getting rid of it right now.. I have boxes in almost every room of good stuff that can go to charity.. this morning.I cleaned out DH closet.. one man does NOT need 18 polo shirts in different colors and 20 weekend t-shirts.. I pruged some... he got nervous and starting whining and said to start with Miranda's stuff.. hehehe.. then he said, okay, your closet. . but I have been doing my closet slowly ALL week..
I really need spring.. time for short sleeves and no more sweaters.. Plus, I need jeans.. my regular jeans fit up until about last week.. almost 7 months and it's only time now for jeans.. I refuse to buy them.. I will never fit into this size again.. I have lost about 30 lbs so far and plan to keep it off this time.. Also, I have about 10 or so pairs of capris / long shorts. . if spring ever comes, I will be in good shape... no buying jeans until the fall when I know what size I will be and where I want to be..

I also didn't go to ballet today.. Made him take her, I went through boxes of misc. stuff behind the couch in the basement.. need to get rid of more, but I loaded up 1 box of scrapbook stuff for a preschool teacher, on BIG bag of stuff for preschool class.. just misc donations of mismatch stuff they can either use or get rid of.. preschool teachers are funny -- the keep the weirdest stuff, sorta the reason I have such a HUGE collection of junk.. I made 1 box of books to put away or plan to sell on ebay at some point later on.. christmas pile and another box for charity..

I am truly lucky, the Big Sisters of RI pick up AT YOUR DOOR.. I box it, label it, they pick it up.. glorious thing. and I get a slip for taxable credit up to 250 bucks.. OH.. a glorious thing.

Fuzzy is getting nervous that I will never get it done.. it just takes time and patience.. I think I will start working on it for 20 minutes each day.. it might help.. the big thing is Miranda's toys that are in the current play room soon to be nursery.. I need to make space for them in the basement.. Honestly.. I am thinking about having my brother turn off the water to the shower down stairs and use it for storage space.. sounds cheesy, but we will see.. I also need to make space in the tiny storage area for a dresser.. I plan to organize some things better and actually USE the dresser for wrapping paper and stuff.. plans.. it's all about plans..

I am still scrapping, got 3 more layouts done yesterday.. planning to do at least one tonight if I don't migrate to the couch and watch a netflix movie that needs to be watched so it can be returned. we canceled netflix.. I am a little sad, we did it to cut costs, but honestly, we don't even watch them half the time.. craziness.. we will just go back to the red box at the grocery store every now and then..or make use of the junk we have taped on the DVR... again.. plans.. it all about the plans.

speaking of, I need to make a list of things at the market we need for next week, this daily trip to the grocery store is bothering me, and we are going to BJ's - a warehouse store -- where you buy in bulk -- to get water, meats and other stuff of that sort... Target should be in there too.. but I am thinking I will go on Monday when I have to run to JoAnn's to buy adhesive..

Scrapbookers will appreciate this.. adhesive is a nasty thing.. you HAVE to buy it to scrap and it's expensive, so you can't even get the good stuff of scrapping when you need it.. I always -- always save my coupons to buy it.. I like the Ducky tape runners for 12.99 for 4 of them.. they are wonderful and let you really stick stuff down and quickly.. I buy them with a 40% coupon and use my teacher discount.. so half price.. when I finally make time to get them, they go on sale.. so not my day ... oh well.. next week.. I have plenty to keep my going until then.

I am rambling now and BECAUSE I DO KNOW BETTER, I am going to stop and get off the computer and either play with pictures or do something else.. might even go make lunch for the natives.. and lists of stuff I need at the store.. plans.. seriously, it's all about making plans...

:) Monique

Friday, April 4, 2008

Time to think...

Pink.. we had the ultrasound today, and the baby wasn't shy.. AT ALL..
the baby had had her feet over her head and showed off all her goods..
the Tech is 100% sure that the newest edition is in fact, a GIRL!
We were also excited to know that the baby is growing right on schedule for the due date of July 8, being born via scheduled c-section on July 1 at 7am. the baby is about 2.2 lbs and measuring up just right. Glad to hear that most of all.
While we were excited to know for sure, there is a little twinge of disappointment for us, more for me, I really wanted to give him a son, but he is happy to know that his little girl is doing just fine. Oh well, the sex is not in my control & we can't change things now.. and we definitely will NOT being having another baby.. EVER!

Miranda is excited as she can be, she knew all along that it was a girl. so did my sisters and a bunch of other people.. so :P~~~ to all the predictions and those who are gloating..
my baby is healthy and truly -- all I care about.

If I knew better, I would be upstairs resting and watching tv -- but I want to finish this layout and probably start another one..

Scrapbook total for the week - 14 layouts since last Friday..
I am really loving this scrap groove I have going and plan on riding it out for as long as it will last.

:) Monique & baby girl.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

new habits are hard...

Okay.. so it's all about the new here this year.. that is actually my Ali Edwards challenge word for the year.. so much new stuff going on for us as a family, it worked.

well, lately, there are new habits being made around the house..
before vacation, we weren't eating great dinners and eating out tons, mostly because of the pregnancy and my major loss of appetite.. Well, while on vacation, Miranda grew quite accustomed to chicken nuggets, pizza, peanut butter and grilled cheese, for a foreign country, yes, this might fly, HOME.. never.. so we made some new changes.. Last week was wash with all the family stuff and it just didn't work.. this week.. NEW changes.. I plan and make dinner every night, hungry or not, tired or not. I make something good and healthy for dinner and include veggies. something else that had been left to the side for a while. I am usually at the market everyday, but I have made dinner every night this week, tried 2 new recipes, Chicken piccatta which was a MAJOR hit for Fuzzy and tonight, homemade mac and cheese.. which, fall down from shock, Miranda LOVED.. I am just about to do cartwheels over her eating it, anything NEW is a major.. just excited and happy it's working.

I am also really trying VERY hard to load the dishwasher and wash pans EVERY night after dinner, something easy to let go, but it really doesn't take long.. tonight it too 4 minutes, seriously, I looked at the clock on the stove before and after I started.. sorta exciting.. I also washed the counters and table down and took less than 10 minutes..

another new project that I started is to help make the mornings easier since I started back to work... I pack lunches, at least as much as I can.. I make sure Miranda tells me what she wants in her lunch and I pack for DH too.. I make sandwiches in the morning and put the cold stuff in then too, but it saves time.. I totally could have skipped it tonight -- but didn't.. new habits are really really hard to make.. but I think this and the others will pay off in the long run.

I also make sure that Miranda picks out her shirt for the next day while she is getting pjs on. I know all these choices for her might seem nuts, but they make things easier. Plus, when she picks out clothes that no longer fit, I can clean out her closet. I also iron for myself and put out clothes for dh. 15 minutes that make things so much smoother in the morning.

The last new thing is that Miranda is being paid for her morning chores.. this is getting up, dressed, eat breakfast and brush teeth.. if she is done all if it by the time DH has breakfast, he can brush her hair if I didn't already do it and she gets paid a quarter.. I know.. paying a kid for this stuff seems wrong .. but it makes life easier.. for everyone.. plus, eventually, the money system can be faded out.. so far, the system is working.. Fuzzy thinks so too.. so good when a plan comes together.. :)

it's not always easy to make new habits, but I think if I just keep trying, and I mean really trying, it might work out.. I will pose this question to whomever reads my blog.. what tips do you have for making things just a little bit easier.. suggestions are always welcome..

If I only knew better, I would be finishing my layout of the day.. wait.. I do know better, so I am finishing THAT layout, starting a load of laundry and maybe doing another one.. :)

:) Monique