Okay, so it's a new Monday and almost a new month.. I started back to work today, very excited to be getting the age group I like, the older kids, don't think I can do diapers or lifting right now.. and then I pick up my daughter and she has had really bad runny nose, complaining of feeling yucky and just wanting to go home, put on pj's and snuggle.. 1st day back and already I get tomorrow off for a sick kid.. am I doomed to never make any money...
Seriously, I am not complaining, Miranda hasn't been sick in a while and for that I am truly grateful, and she is a hypochondriac, which doesn't help, but she isn't one to want to miss school -- so a quiet day home might be good for her. Honestly, we might be putting her to work in cleaning up the basement some, just sorting out boxes of junk, etc so that we can start cleaning out the play room for the baby. I am dragging my feet on this-- but it must be done, especially if we are going to paint, which I really would like to do.
I currently have 3 boxes and 2 bags of stuff in that room to donate to good will -- Big Sister's of RI are coming on Thursday.. I love organizations that come to your door to pick up the stuff you don't want. I am working on my next set.. Bonus deal is that you get a slip to claim the stuff as a tax deduction.
Speaking of taxes, that is the project for me later this week..I need to get our receipts in order and once DH get his last W2, we can file.. I pray the tax gods are kind.. I doubt we will see a refund, but not paying is all I am asking for... Must put Call Pete the Accountant on the list for the morning.
I am currently working on the Just 5 list. This means I make a list of 5 things to do for that day.. if I work, then that counts as a something, if not, there is a back up. 5 things is a short list, allows for me to feel successful, which right now, I really need. I also make up a Just 5 list for scrapbooking or fun stuff... that is even more important to me.. makes me feel like I am having some fun too. All of this is helping to lift my BLAH mood that I blogged about last week.
The baby is growing, this morning I finally figured out the rumbling, the baby had the hiccups.. sorta made me giggle to think about it. We have another ultrasound on Friday and I can't wait. Fuzzy is going with me and we are so excited.. I really want to know if this baby is a boy or a girl, mind you, healthy is all I truly want, but knowing is so much easier for me. I am just not the surprise type.. not my thing. Also, this will allow me to get started ON a baby album. which would be sorta fun.. I am still routing team BOY, but not holding my breathe. Also, DH has been in a non-discussion mood on names, which is strange, since we did this all the time for Miranda.. we have names, just not locking anything in yet.... although it would be nice.
We do have a final date and time for our c-section -- July 1 at 7 am, we have to be there by 5:30 am. that is if the baby doesn't come on his or her own.
what else, April 1 is tomorrow and I am feeling optomistic... staying home with Miranda is a good thing, but not working and getting errands done is good too.. we'll see what the am brings.. until then .. I am doing laundry..
If I only knew better I would be sorting a box behind the couch to start sorting the mess, but I think I will find photos and try to scrap one quick layout.. Oh and make my Just 5 list for Tuesday too..
Night.
:) Monique
Monday, March 31, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
hoping for normal
Okay, so my blog has been a little.. Blah! lately.. things in my life are just feeling sorta Blah! lately too.. I am really anxiously awaiting April 1, that is the date that I am giving myself to stop feeling .. blah! I know it's only like 4 or 5 days away, but right now.. I feel blah and am think I need to continue feeling blah and I want to feel blah... things are rough in so many ways.. I am starting to crave NORMAL...
normal is Fuzzy working and getting paid
normal is housework -- especially laundry being done by monday, vaccuuming the house and doing what needs doing..
normal is a shower by 7 and bed by 8.
normal is over rated, but so very much appreciated by me.. I like normal, I like miss ruts and desperately crave a routine that is normal where things can be predictable, expected and counted on to happen... I am not big on change, it's hard for me.. I don't like it and resist it.. I know that there are about to be LOTS of changes in the next few months with the baby, but I am expecting those, this stuff in my life lately, not so much.
so here I am to toast normal... may it find me soon.
If I only knew better, I would work harder to accept change, but I am feeling cranky and just don't feel like it today..
:P~~~ Monique
normal is Fuzzy working and getting paid
normal is housework -- especially laundry being done by monday, vaccuuming the house and doing what needs doing..
normal is a shower by 7 and bed by 8.
normal is over rated, but so very much appreciated by me.. I like normal, I like miss ruts and desperately crave a routine that is normal where things can be predictable, expected and counted on to happen... I am not big on change, it's hard for me.. I don't like it and resist it.. I know that there are about to be LOTS of changes in the next few months with the baby, but I am expecting those, this stuff in my life lately, not so much.
so here I am to toast normal... may it find me soon.
If I only knew better, I would work harder to accept change, but I am feeling cranky and just don't feel like it today..
:P~~~ Monique
Monday, March 24, 2008
Ahhh.. another Monday
Sometimes, I love Mondays, sometimes, I don't.
Mondays usually mean a new start, new prospective, a chance to just start over..
Sometime, Mondays just suck.
Today, is a sucky Monday. My week is already planned out with the funeral arrangements and commitments, DH is worried about work and the house is really a mess.. Plus, I have to go to Target and get like a ton of stuff.. Mondays like this SUCK...
If I only knew better, I would be off doing of the 3 million things that need doing, but I am just not into it today... *SIGH*
Monique
no happy face today, just not feeling it.
Mondays usually mean a new start, new prospective, a chance to just start over..
Sometime, Mondays just suck.
Today, is a sucky Monday. My week is already planned out with the funeral arrangements and commitments, DH is worried about work and the house is really a mess.. Plus, I have to go to Target and get like a ton of stuff.. Mondays like this SUCK...
If I only knew better, I would be off doing of the 3 million things that need doing, but I am just not into it today... *SIGH*
Monique
no happy face today, just not feeling it.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Happy Easter
when did 5:30 come so early.. when the Easter Bunny comes...
she had the hardest time accepting that she had to wait until an appropriate hour to wake up and find all the Easter eggs the bunny had hidden... all 28 of them...
she loved her Easter basket too..
then at my sister's after breakfast, she hunted for another 25 eggs, all with candy or cash...
so 50 some odd eggs later, my daughter is hunted out, Fuzzy is taking a nap, and I am checking email and doing laundry..
if I only knew better, I would napping too..
Happy Easter Everyone..
:) Monique
she had the hardest time accepting that she had to wait until an appropriate hour to wake up and find all the Easter eggs the bunny had hidden... all 28 of them...
she loved her Easter basket too..
then at my sister's after breakfast, she hunted for another 25 eggs, all with candy or cash...
so 50 some odd eggs later, my daughter is hunted out, Fuzzy is taking a nap, and I am checking email and doing laundry..
if I only knew better, I would napping too..
Happy Easter Everyone..
:) Monique
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
just an ordinary day...
Okay, maybe not ordinary, but a boring day... one much like what I will be having for a while.
my uncle who was diagnosed with cancer back in December is very sick, no more chemo, no more hospitals, no more treatments.. he is home and basically waiting to die. it's scarey, but nothing new .. I sadly watched my father go through this, although from a distance and through the protection of my mother, even as an adult she protected us from that stuff (death I mean).. and more recently and much more closely, with my mother. Fortunately for my family, my mother left the earth peacefully and quickly -- a mere 2 weeks from her diagnosis of cancer. She had suffered enough in the months before her illness was detected. I sat with her at the end, often for 18 hours at a time, just so she would not have to be alone.. it was truly the hardest thing I have ever done, and in my time with her, I was honest and spoke from the heart. I have no regrets for any of our talks or the things I shared with her. Her belief in God is what made it easier for her to cope and accept.. and in her own time, surrounded by those she loved, my mom left.
My uncle is just in suffering, he is just failing, slowly and painfully.. he is choosing not to go to a Hospice Hospital-- which is okay for now, as long as we can care for him.. my job is easy, basically, I am there for the day, 9ish until 3ish, with my brother in law, just to make sure that if he needs medication or help moving to the bathroom, he gets it.. trying desperately to use the time to make cards, scrapbook or look at magazines to get me inspired.
this will be my time for a while, at least until he passes.. I am truly NOT the praying type, it's just never brought me the peace or solace that it brings others, I talk to God or to more to my mother when I need to, but I ask of anyone who reads this.. please pray that God be merciful to my uncle and bring his suffering to an end so that whatever awaits him after this time on earth, comes to him....
thanks for listening..
if I only knew better (which I just realized I haven't been doing) I would be thinking less bad thoughts, but I can't right now.. my heart is just a little heavy and that is just where I am.
Monique
my uncle who was diagnosed with cancer back in December is very sick, no more chemo, no more hospitals, no more treatments.. he is home and basically waiting to die. it's scarey, but nothing new .. I sadly watched my father go through this, although from a distance and through the protection of my mother, even as an adult she protected us from that stuff (death I mean).. and more recently and much more closely, with my mother. Fortunately for my family, my mother left the earth peacefully and quickly -- a mere 2 weeks from her diagnosis of cancer. She had suffered enough in the months before her illness was detected. I sat with her at the end, often for 18 hours at a time, just so she would not have to be alone.. it was truly the hardest thing I have ever done, and in my time with her, I was honest and spoke from the heart. I have no regrets for any of our talks or the things I shared with her. Her belief in God is what made it easier for her to cope and accept.. and in her own time, surrounded by those she loved, my mom left.
My uncle is just in suffering, he is just failing, slowly and painfully.. he is choosing not to go to a Hospice Hospital-- which is okay for now, as long as we can care for him.. my job is easy, basically, I am there for the day, 9ish until 3ish, with my brother in law, just to make sure that if he needs medication or help moving to the bathroom, he gets it.. trying desperately to use the time to make cards, scrapbook or look at magazines to get me inspired.
this will be my time for a while, at least until he passes.. I am truly NOT the praying type, it's just never brought me the peace or solace that it brings others, I talk to God or to more to my mother when I need to, but I ask of anyone who reads this.. please pray that God be merciful to my uncle and bring his suffering to an end so that whatever awaits him after this time on earth, comes to him....
thanks for listening..
if I only knew better (which I just realized I haven't been doing) I would be thinking less bad thoughts, but I can't right now.. my heart is just a little heavy and that is just where I am.
Monique
Monday, March 17, 2008
heartbeat & modern technology
Okay.. so this being the first official day back to work for all of us, DH could not take the time off for a long lunch to go to a baby appt. He was really upset.. He loves these appt's and especially hearing the baby's heartbeat. I would have rescheduled it, but feeling as yucky as I do with this stomach virus (which apparently is going around) neither of us thought it would be a good idea.
so I go to the appt. and when the dr. comes in, goes over all the routine stuff (side note, stomach virus is not a problem, no harm to the baby, 7-10 days of yuck, call him if it continues, just keep on drinking TONS.. I am totally starting to HATE the taste of vitamin water) ... anyways he gets ready with the doppler and applies the gel. I ask him if the doppler will be loud enough and not give feedback for me to call dh and let him listen. Dr. says it shouldn't.. and guess what .. it worked.. took a few minutes to find the heartbeat, but it was strong and clear and with our cell phone connection, DH heard it ... he says he smiled really big and it made his day. My sister says I am a doctor's worse nightmare and that while he thought it was cute in the office, he and his office staff laughed at me later.. I don't care... Fuzzy was able to be there, without being there.. a win-win in my book.
tommorow I am officially 6 months... I have an appt. for April 4th for an ultrasound with the baby whisperer in his office, apparantly this woman can make every baby co-operate.. I am hoping and praying to find out what this baby is.. we really want to know.. We have to start thinking of names more too, since Max has become the "IT" name this year.. makes me a little sad, because I really liked it, but I am not into trendy names at all.. we'll see..
I also get the glucose test.. YUCK!
other stuff happened, but it's not fun and I don't really care to relive it.. Monday is almost done and I am glad..
oh.. and if you are the praying type.. please pray I find my wallet, credit cards have been canceled, but I still need stuff in it... thanks..
:) Monique
so I go to the appt. and when the dr. comes in, goes over all the routine stuff (side note, stomach virus is not a problem, no harm to the baby, 7-10 days of yuck, call him if it continues, just keep on drinking TONS.. I am totally starting to HATE the taste of vitamin water) ... anyways he gets ready with the doppler and applies the gel. I ask him if the doppler will be loud enough and not give feedback for me to call dh and let him listen. Dr. says it shouldn't.. and guess what .. it worked.. took a few minutes to find the heartbeat, but it was strong and clear and with our cell phone connection, DH heard it ... he says he smiled really big and it made his day. My sister says I am a doctor's worse nightmare and that while he thought it was cute in the office, he and his office staff laughed at me later.. I don't care... Fuzzy was able to be there, without being there.. a win-win in my book.
tommorow I am officially 6 months... I have an appt. for April 4th for an ultrasound with the baby whisperer in his office, apparantly this woman can make every baby co-operate.. I am hoping and praying to find out what this baby is.. we really want to know.. We have to start thinking of names more too, since Max has become the "IT" name this year.. makes me a little sad, because I really liked it, but I am not into trendy names at all.. we'll see..
I also get the glucose test.. YUCK!
other stuff happened, but it's not fun and I don't really care to relive it.. Monday is almost done and I am glad..
oh.. and if you are the praying type.. please pray I find my wallet, credit cards have been canceled, but I still need stuff in it... thanks..
:) Monique
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Um.. just a while...
Okay.. so I am offically a BAD blogger..
it's not all my fault, having been out of the country for 3 weeks squishes plans of staying on top of things.. YES, I would have posted from Sydney, but I was busy...
Home has never felt like a better place in all my life.. I appreciate the little things more..
1. my bed.. I love my bed..
2. my washing machine & dryer.. -- I have a king size set of machines, tons of laundry, short time, no air drying here.
3. my computer -- just knows all about me and everything I need to know and look at is just a click away.
4. my scrapbook stuff is here, I love my collection (notice I say collection and not supplies -- one would have to be using them for scrapbooking pages in order to call them supplies)... my papers make me happy to fondle them, ribbons all neatly tucked into boxes, bows, brads, embellishments, stickers.. they really do make me giddy.. happy thing the scrapbook collection.
5. my house.. while it may seem small at times, it ours.. Fuzzy's, Miranda's & Mine. I love that when I am here, it's ours -- all ours.. we can find a space to sit quiet and be alone, or sit at the table and eat dinner.
I like home... there really is something wonderful and spectacular about it... I guess it takes a vacation to make your realize just how much you might be taking for granted... My vacation was nice, please don't get me wrong,but home... AHHH.. it's just HOME.
Australia really was nice. DH got to really bond and connect with his brother in a way he never has before.. really nice to see. Boo got to bond more with her grandparents and enjoy being with them. really wonderful for her & them since they are her only living grandparents now. The country was pretty and if I wasn't pregnant and tired so quickly, I could have made it out to see more.. But honestly, Australia is not a country for little kids. there are no major theme parks and seeing building and structures is fun, but not the fun for a 5 year old when miles of walking is involved. She did see Koala Park and the aquarium, so I am glad about that. but to say that we did much, we didn't. This trip was more about being with family and just enjoying company.. sometimes vacation like that are good. --- on a good note, the day before we left for Sydney, we spent a night in Los Angeles and my sister was there, for business. We took Miranda to Knotts Berry Farm -- aka Snoopy Park. they have a great Snoopy Camp and lots of great rides for little kids and Snoopy fans, if you are ever in the area.. GO! this place ROCKS. there is also the cutest little old man named Basil, who does pastel drawings.. OH MY GOSH! the one he did of Boo was AMAZING!! my in-laws loved it.
On the baby front, Tuesday I will officially be 6 months. sorta exciting how fast things are going. having big things planned and projects going on has been good for keeping me busy. I am still about 25 lbs down on my weight. Eating is getting easier, still lots of nausea, but definitely improving. I also managed to catch a stomach virus on my way home from vacation.. it's left me with a hard time eating and drinking tons and tons of vitamin water -- so I don't dehydrate. Fun eh? I do see my Dr. tomorrow.. I think it's almost time for another ultrasound -- which I hope is soon -- a sex on this kid would be nice. I seem to be carrying higher than I did for Miranda, so it could be boy.. who knows. I also get the glucose test soon (YUCK) and some other routine stuff.. Also might be going to the every 3 weeks for appointments now too.. which is cool.. Still love hearing the heartbeat. Fuzzy has to work so he isn't sure if he is coming tomorrow or not.. would be nice, but work is important too.. his is our only income.
what else.. I am making cards like a crazy woman... I signed up for a bunch of swaps on Close to My Heart swap board right before vacation and I have another one on Dmarie.. I must be OUT of my MIND! I have to stop.. I am just hoping to have enough cards, particularly birthday cards to last me a good long while. 15 done, 25 to go.
I hope to get my act together and start working on my scrapbook of the trip. Would be nice to have the album finished -- good memories for Miranda... we'll see. I have a few baby books to make too for friend's and baby showers.
Okay.. I have some table cleaning up to do and it's getting later and this post is getting LONGER..I really will try to post more...
:) Monique
it's not all my fault, having been out of the country for 3 weeks squishes plans of staying on top of things.. YES, I would have posted from Sydney, but I was busy...
Home has never felt like a better place in all my life.. I appreciate the little things more..
1. my bed.. I love my bed..
2. my washing machine & dryer.. -- I have a king size set of machines, tons of laundry, short time, no air drying here.
3. my computer -- just knows all about me and everything I need to know and look at is just a click away.
4. my scrapbook stuff is here, I love my collection (notice I say collection and not supplies -- one would have to be using them for scrapbooking pages in order to call them supplies)... my papers make me happy to fondle them, ribbons all neatly tucked into boxes, bows, brads, embellishments, stickers.. they really do make me giddy.. happy thing the scrapbook collection.
5. my house.. while it may seem small at times, it ours.. Fuzzy's, Miranda's & Mine. I love that when I am here, it's ours -- all ours.. we can find a space to sit quiet and be alone, or sit at the table and eat dinner.
I like home... there really is something wonderful and spectacular about it... I guess it takes a vacation to make your realize just how much you might be taking for granted... My vacation was nice, please don't get me wrong,but home... AHHH.. it's just HOME.
Australia really was nice. DH got to really bond and connect with his brother in a way he never has before.. really nice to see. Boo got to bond more with her grandparents and enjoy being with them. really wonderful for her & them since they are her only living grandparents now. The country was pretty and if I wasn't pregnant and tired so quickly, I could have made it out to see more.. But honestly, Australia is not a country for little kids. there are no major theme parks and seeing building and structures is fun, but not the fun for a 5 year old when miles of walking is involved. She did see Koala Park and the aquarium, so I am glad about that. but to say that we did much, we didn't. This trip was more about being with family and just enjoying company.. sometimes vacation like that are good. --- on a good note, the day before we left for Sydney, we spent a night in Los Angeles and my sister was there, for business. We took Miranda to Knotts Berry Farm -- aka Snoopy Park. they have a great Snoopy Camp and lots of great rides for little kids and Snoopy fans, if you are ever in the area.. GO! this place ROCKS. there is also the cutest little old man named Basil, who does pastel drawings.. OH MY GOSH! the one he did of Boo was AMAZING!! my in-laws loved it.
On the baby front, Tuesday I will officially be 6 months. sorta exciting how fast things are going. having big things planned and projects going on has been good for keeping me busy. I am still about 25 lbs down on my weight. Eating is getting easier, still lots of nausea, but definitely improving. I also managed to catch a stomach virus on my way home from vacation.. it's left me with a hard time eating and drinking tons and tons of vitamin water -- so I don't dehydrate. Fun eh? I do see my Dr. tomorrow.. I think it's almost time for another ultrasound -- which I hope is soon -- a sex on this kid would be nice. I seem to be carrying higher than I did for Miranda, so it could be boy.. who knows. I also get the glucose test soon (YUCK) and some other routine stuff.. Also might be going to the every 3 weeks for appointments now too.. which is cool.. Still love hearing the heartbeat. Fuzzy has to work so he isn't sure if he is coming tomorrow or not.. would be nice, but work is important too.. his is our only income.
what else.. I am making cards like a crazy woman... I signed up for a bunch of swaps on Close to My Heart swap board right before vacation and I have another one on Dmarie.. I must be OUT of my MIND! I have to stop.. I am just hoping to have enough cards, particularly birthday cards to last me a good long while. 15 done, 25 to go.
I hope to get my act together and start working on my scrapbook of the trip. Would be nice to have the album finished -- good memories for Miranda... we'll see. I have a few baby books to make too for friend's and baby showers.
Okay.. I have some table cleaning up to do and it's getting later and this post is getting LONGER..I really will try to post more...
:) Monique
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